Back on track

First of all, thanks so much again for the comments you guys leave. Ya'll are the best.

What a week! I had a bad weekend (last weekend) and totally overdid it, felt sick all day Sunday. So I had guilt about that for a while. I swear I wanted to bang my head against the wall. I KNOW BETTER!! I was so mad at myself. But I really tried to just move on and get back on my program, and I think I was successful at that. A lady at work has been SO sick, hacking all over the place, and I kept thinking "If she gets me sick, esp. with a cough like that, before this surgery, I might kill her". Because when I get shit like that, I keep it forever like a lock of Bo's hair. Speaking of...another crapper of the week is logging onto Facebook and reading that he'd CUT HIS HAIR. I swear there were vapors. But it's still past his shoulders so it's all good. *whew* Then Adam landed in the bottom 3 on Idol. WTF??? Then Danny had his worst week yet on Hell's Kitchen. WTF?? I was holding my breath during eliminations on both shows. And there was more drama with the kid, which I won't go into except to shake my head and say "Sigh."

I decided to plug my new goal weight into Sparkpeople. By July 6, when I weigh in before my surgery, I'd like to lose another 30 pounds. I kinda think I might be lowballing myself, but I also know that as you lose weight, i.e., the less you weigh, the slower it comes off. The program cut my daily caloric goal back a little bit but that's ok because I rarely met my previous intake anyway. So, off we go to the new goal!

Things started off with a bang, lemme tell ya. LOL! I hopped on the scale Friday morning and let out a very loud "WHAT??" I thought for sure I woke Erich up. I'd lost 6 pounds! I was just hoping to break even, to undo the damage I did when I fell head first off the wagon last weekend. Isn't the human body odd? I can do so well with my eating and exercise and lose nothing, or I can mess around for a couple days and lose 6. It's weird. I hope I don't pay for that big loss next week. We'll see.

I've passed a milestone this week - I'm under "a certain weight" for the first time I can remember since perhaps college (I graduated in 1994). Back when I was first diagnosed with diabetes in 2005, I lost quite a bit of weight. Around 50 lbs., maybe. I don't know exactly because we didn't have a scale that would weigh me then and neither did my dr. So I might be around that weight again now. However, the last time I know I stepped on a scale and saw these numbers, I was in college. I'd lose a bunch of weight on phen-fen, the crazy diet drug combo that was eventually banned by the FDA because it could cause serious heart problems. I've been worried about my heart ever since then - that's one reason I was so glad when all my tests that I had for the surgery came back normal. But I digress. Anyway....it feels great to see these numbers on my scale again!

Next week I hope to hit another milestone. I'm two pounds away from having lost 50 lbs. I'm grinning like an idiot as I type that. LOL! So cross your fingers for me that I hit that next Friday!