Sick and tired

First of all, my apologies for the previous blog! I know I was a hot mess when I wrote it. Lesson learned - think first, write later. I wanted to share my 18-lb. weight loss while also explaining my confusion over the total weight lost. I guess I didn't do a very good job! LOL! Well, I'm back at Henry Ford on Wednesday so we'll find out the real number then. I'm sure their scale is much more accurate than mine.

I haven't felt very well the past couple of days. Nauseated and tired, it's everything I can do to go out for my walks. I know I'm not eating enough - we're supposed to build up to 700-900 calories a day and I'm averaging about 400. I'm not sure how much to add; I don't want to stretch my pouch and lord knows I'm not hungry. My dr. cut my metformin (my diabetes medication) in half when I came back from Detroit, but man...my sugar is so low, that I'm going to experiment with not taking it at all. I think the fatigue I'm feeling might have something to do with the low blood sugar. I'm skipping my dosage today and will see what happens.

I am getting in all my supplements and protein, though. Protein was worrisome at first; I don't want all my hair to fall out and protein deficiency contributes to that. It's an issue with gastric bypass patients, the hair loss. I'm worried about that! My hair is the one thing I know I have going for me (I can make it look good if I want to) and I don't want to lose it. It's already much thinner than it was say, 10 years ago. But I put a scoop of Isoflex in my smoothie in the morning plus a scoop to my Crystal Light during the day and I am able to get in about 75 grams. We are supposed to have 60-80 grams a day. Actually eating FOOD instead of liquids also ups the protein content.

Supplements are no biggie for me. I've been a professional pill taker for years now.

Water is a whole 'nother issue. I'm not getting in the 64 oz. a day. It seems like I'm sipping all the time, but I'm only getting in a little over half of that amount. It's a gradual process I suppose. I'll keep working on it.

I am used to taking a diuretic every day. It keeps my blood pressure down and keeps me from being bloated. They took me off that because gastric bypass patients tend to dehydrate easily anyway - the theory is, I guess, that we don't need the "help" of a diuretic. Well, I miss mine! Especially with my pre-op weight loss, I was getting used to having ankles again! My fingers and feet are a bit bloated. Sucks!!

I sure wish I could see the light at the end of the tunnel and I could know, for certainty, that this is all worth it. I'm sure it will be, it's just hard to see it sometimes. What was my mantra again? I'm stronger than I think I am. Right.