A deep breath

Thanks so much for all your comments, especially on my last entry. I was feeling really awful and knowing other people care makes a huge difference. My sweet Susan - I think you have a point. And I love you.

I went to my first support group meeting yesterday. Not a lot of people come in the summer, so many are busy with vacations and stuff, but it was really good anyway. We sat around and talked about the journey and what's bothering us. Good advice and open, sympathetic ears. I left feeling much better and pretty secure in the knowledge that I'm normal. LOL! What I'm going through is pretty par for the course. I just have to get through it. If you're going through hell, keep going, right? At some point, you'll make it out to the other side.

At the meeting yesterday, someone mentioned a blog called "The World According to Eggface". It's written by a gastric bypass patient and is chock-full of nutrition advice, recipes and just plain ole common sense. I checked it out and it's FANTASTIC. If you're a gastric bypass patient, you need to read this blog. Or even if you're not! http://theworldaccordingtoeggface.blogspot.com/ This woman has pizza recipes for post-op lifestyles and a pizza porn photo gallery. My kinda chick!

It's weird how I felt better in the first couple weeks after the surgery than I do now. I felt good then. Now I'm exhausted, nauseated and a bit irritable. I know that's all normal but it kinda seems ass-backwards to me. I remember when I first got home, I had the energy and desire to clean up around the house and get some things done that had gone neglected for a while. Now I could care less. I guess the only way to snap out of it is to just DO it. So this week I'm going to really make an effort to trick my mind into thinking I'm ok. I really do think this is that 'hibernation period' I've read so much about. The group leader at yesterday's meeting said "All you want to do is sleep, right?" Yep! That's me right now, and it won't do. I guess my body's figured out there is no more food coming and it wants to conserve energy. I need to be finished with letting my body control me, I need to control it. So it's a battle of wills. Heh. I plan to win.

On another note, LORDA MERCY I miss Bo Bice! *sigh* I would give anything to be with my friends in Maryland tomorrow night. I actually think either a Bo show or just seeing some of my friends would do a lot to help me right now. But it ain't happening so I'll suck it up and drool over the pics and video. VIDEO. Hear that Lecia? ;-)